You know the saying “Sticks and stones may break my bones but words would never hurt me,” yeah well it’s crap. Words do hurt and they hurt real bad.
Recently I was told something based on assumptions and even though it was said out of care, it hurt me. It didn’t hurt me but more like angered me in a way. I have been eating healthy for the past few months. Dumped the cakes, sodas and chocolates for fruits and fresh juices and healthier alternatives. I wouldn’t say I didn’t snack, I did, but just on a regulated basis. Rather than take 3 drinks in a day, I down sized to one.
But this month, I have been eating. Especially during my last period, I ate like a hog (well almost like one). And, I didn’t really mind. I mean, I believe it’s okay every once in a while. Yet for some reasons, the weight isn’t showing on my body (which I also don’t mind 😉 ).
So a friend of mine, “suggested” that I was conscious of my weight and drastically losing weight and I look Sick. She didn’t say it that way, these are my words but that was what it implied. The statement flared up some emotions in me because, one- she didn’t live with me so she wouldn’t know and two- it was false. Some may say if it isn’t true then why the emotions, trust me, if I knew, I wouldn’t be writing this. The thing is when I was slightly overweight, it didn’t really bother me (and this is a fact) so, why should my weight bother me now.
As for the healthy eating, I had a little of a scare a few months back. My dad’s sister got diagnosed with diabetes. She is the fourth of his siblings to get diabetes (he also has) which makes my genetic predisposition to diabetes fairly high. My excuse before was that it’s only the males that get diabetes in their family so my chance was low. But after her diagnosis, the tables turned and I knew I had to make a health change now.
Also, I live with my sister who is a little above underweight and she hasn’t been eating properly. Throughout this month, I made it my mission to cook everyday in order to motivate her to eat. One of her friends came the other day and was joking about how my sister told her “I have been force-feeding her”. So for someone to tell me that I look sick for being healthy, it hurts. I love how I Look, with or without fat. But after what she said, I found myself staring at the mirror a little too long today and putting on a darker shade of eye-liner just because I didn’t want to look “sick”.
Nobody should have to feel that way. And I know we do say things out of love and affection but what I want to say is this- when it comes to topics like appearance or sensitive issues like weight, please filter your words. Of course this message also goes to me because after experiencing first hand how it feels, I never want to make anyone feel like that.
*Whew* I feel so much better already. Thank you guys for giving me a platform to air my random thoughts. I know this is no poetry or quote but I just had to write this out.
Sticks & Stones
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