Her Evolution-

Her Evolution-

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I wasn’t always like this you know, she remarked softly, as if speaking to No one in particular.
I used to be fun, at least that’s what I’ve been told. I used to have friends, I even used to make jokes, laughable ones too.

It was great to be the joker and the life of the crowd and I reckon, I enjoyed the attraction and the favours it brought along. But eventually, I began to wonder if there was more to life than “that kind” of fun …

I wondered if I could be more. I wanted to be more.
More than just another pretty face, another name who gets passed around by with a laugh, another came and gone, another soul in a world filled with a billion of us. I wanted to be More…

It began with writing down all the things I thought I could do, the person I thought I could be, and- I never dropped the pen afterwards.

They say I have changed and I have lost who I used to be.
But in fact, I have evolved, I have found who I am supposed to be.

Faults-

Faults-

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I chase the things,
I cannot have,
I want the things,
Out of my grasp….
For all my life, i’ve been this way.

I hide my truth,
Behind a smile,
I write to live,
Bleeding inside,
For all my life, i’ve been this way.

I love- beyond,
Limits and bounds,
I give my all,
Emptying out,
For all my life, i’ve been this way.

For all my life,
I’ve lived not thrived,
Watered my loves,
And wilted out,
I was this way, for all my life
It’s time to change, for the life I can have…

The above image is courtesy of Abbide.com

Writer’s Quote: Hugh Laurie

Writer’s Quote: Hugh Laurie

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Yesterday, I posted a poem about “truth being a bitter pill to swallow” which was inspired by an event that occurred with my sister. I rarely share the inspiration behind my posts, but this time, I want to make an exception.

My sister and I were conversing and she pointed out a certain flaw I struggle with; of course being me, I got defensive. It wasn’t until later on that I realized what she was trying to say. She wasn’t condemning me, merely stating a fact.
Now, this certain flaw is something once I became aware of, I try my best and go out of my way to overcome it.

I am not where I want to be in regards to it, but those who matter in my life know, I have come a long way from where I was. They know I try and If I was a zero few years back, I am a 6 now. Which even though is not a 10, it’s certainly better than being stuck at that zero.

We all have things we struggle with and traits we’d like to change, but the truth is- knowing our flaws and overcoming them are two different things. It’s not enough to say “okay I know that”, we’ve got to try to change it. Now I realize, there is no need to get hot headed over certain things. Change is a gradual process which doesn’t happen overnight. The fact that we are trying makes all the difference and those who matter in our lives know it.

This reminds me of a quote by Actor Hugh Laurie whom a lot you may know was the Genius sarcastic Doctor we can’t help but love- Dr Gregory House. He said,

-Time changes everything. That’s what people say, it’s not true. Doing things changes things. Not doing things leaves things exactly as they are.

Just thought I’d share an event which inspired me this week for Writer’s Quote Wednesday.

Writer’s Quote: Hunter S. Thompson

Writer’s Quote: Hunter S. Thompson

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The wind is in constant motion, carrying along with it clouds gathering moisture; the leaves of the trees dance wildly then slowly, increasing in volume and decreasing, constantly changing from green to brown and everything in between; the ocean’s waves rises and crashes moving towards the shore with varying intensity; seasons change from winter to spring to summer to autumn and once in every four years an extra day appear. All around us is in constant motion and there we are, feeling stuck.

The truth is, if we can dissect our lives, minute by minute and reflect on every passing moment, we will come to the conclusion- life is constantly changing; we are constantly changing. But then again, we are our own worst critic. We beat ourselves up for things beyond our control. We beat ourselves up despite trying our best.
I have come to the conclusion now, if just one minute aspect of my life has changed In a positive way, then it’s not just for nothing.

I’d like to believe we all have dreams and goals which we aspire towards no matter our ages, some of grandeur while some simplistic; some aim to write everyday and improve while others aim to publish a worthy book; some have deadlines and some don’t; here’s to wading away the feeling of being stuck, here’s to writing our way through constantly changing momentum, and here’s to achieving our goals while still living In the present. Here and now, is all we have.
                     This random turned a year older today, hence the reflection 🙊
To end this with a quote by Hunter S. Thompson:

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This post is in response to Writer’s Quote Wednesday hosted by Silver Threading.

Writer’s Quote: Bruce Lee

Writer’s Quote: Bruce Lee

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This week’s inspiration is from Martial Arts legend, Bruce Lee, his above words speak to me. Writing is like any other art, in the sense that, it is honed with constant practice. When we write everyday, it might appear to us like nothing has changed. If ever we do look back at the written works gathered over time, the change in our writings become visible.

Bestsellers and masterpieces aren’t created overnight, it takes effort and research and lots of writing. It’s a process of trial and error. We write, we erase some paragraph and add sentences to some pargraphs. We are continuously writing and trying to outdo the previous and that “constant zeal” makes all the difference.

This post is in response to writer’s quote Wednesday.

Writer’s Quote: Neil Gaiman

Writer’s Quote: Neil Gaiman

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I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes; because if you make mistakes, then you’re making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You’re doing things you’ve never done before, and more importantly, you’re doing something.
So that’s my wish for you, and all of us, and my wish for myself. Make new mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes. Make mistakes nobody’s ever made before. Don’t freeze, don’t stop, don’t worry that it isn’t good enough, or it isn’t perfect, whatever it is: art or love or work or family or life. Whatever it is you are scared of doing, do it.
Make your mistakes, next year and forever
                   -Neil Gaiman

I was saving the above quote to share during the upcoming New year, but then, I thought, new year is a relative term. For some of us, a new year is far more represented by our “birthdays” rather than the first of January, some follow the Chinese calendar and some, the Islamic one. Today is as good a day to make a resolution as another day and the great part is, whatever resolutions we make beats the odd of not falling into the cliché uncompleted resolutions.

In life, we are advised to always think before we act and as good an advice as it is, we tend to take it a little more and spend all of our time thinking, rather than doing acting. And these seconds, minutes pass, the clock keeps ticking, while we, keep thinking. At the same time, we make resolutions like, “I’d start at Christmas” and then Christmas turns to new year, which turns to Eid and before we know it, the cycles gone round and we arrive at another Christmas with the same untouched goals we had a year back.

Today is the 30th, one more day and a new month begins. Here’s to making beautiful, amazing and glorious mistakes; to writing our worries and ignoring our fears; to completing our projects and changing ourselves; here’s to living and loving and writing away…

This post is in response to the weekly event Writer’s Quote Wednesday

Toxic Friendship-

Toxic Friendship-

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They are part of a history
You wish to forget;
But You hear they say sane ones,
Don’t give up on friends;
Even when they turn toxic,
Or flames burn too bright;
When their convos deplete
Your energy and you tire.

Friends are forever
A Bond that shouldn’t die;
So you trudge through the day
While they drain out your life;
And their words sting as toxins
But you still fake a smile;
Cause “you don’t give up on friends”
So we’re taught
And thus we grow-
With the concept that toxins,
Aren’t harmful to our lives;
If we’ve known them for too long,
They can only bite.

But you’ve grown
and you’ve changed
And you write words in rhymes;
And you’ve met friends
Who’ve shown you
Your light, now you shine.
Keep them
At arms length-
The toxins of the past;
You’re not giving up
On friendship
Just taking charge of your life.

Day 3 of October Poetry Writing Month. Prompt: Free write for ten minutes about what drains you and what depletes your energy. IMAGE CREDIT: Quotesgram.com

V- Verily

V- Verily

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For verily,
Just as the waves collapse at shore,
And rocks crumble upon force;

Just as the sun sets at dusk,
And night arrives before dawn;

Just as flowers bloom then wilt,
And pollens meet and kiss;

Just as opposite poles attract-
In a field of magnetic power;

Just as Summer changes to fall,
And greens of leaves turn brown;

So will the turmoil of today fade-
As a new day rejuvenates.

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Writers Quote- Scott Fitzgerald

Writers Quote- Scott Fitzgerald

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For what it’s worth… It’s never
too late, or in my case too early,
to be whoever you want to be.
There’s no time limit. Start whenever
you want.
You can change or stay the same,
There are no rules to this thing.
We can make the best or the worst
of it. I hope you make the best of it.
I hope you see things that
startle you. I hope you feel things
you never felt before.
I hope you meet people who have
a different point of view.
I hope you live a life you’re proud
of. And if you’re not,
I hope you have the courage to
start all over again.
               – F. Scott Fitzgerald

The above words by the late. F Scott Fitzgerald is one I’m glad I came upon. The awesome thing about life is that we have the ability to change and start all over again. And actually, it’s that easy- The first step is having the will, and we’ll go from there.

One of the best thing that ever happened to me is traveling out of the only country I knew to another, thousands of miles away. And actually, it’s not as bad as it seems. If I hadn’t left, I would have missed out on the most amazing opportunity of having the experience to see a whole different culture and people. To interact with people who do not care about past mistakes. To begin things on a clean and clear state. And most of all, to belong in community with a variety of citizens each from different nationalities and getting to learn and experience their way of life. Not to mention, the “amusing” characters you get to come across who make the perfect inspiration for writing.
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