Hi, my legal name is Rayette but I go by Ray. I am totally blind and have been since birth. I have been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, major depressive disorder, PTSD and an eating disorder-Anorexia, to be more specific and it is something I have been dealing with for the past 17 years.
I was never officially diagnosed with an eating disorder because my grandparents didn’t believe in mental health treatment.
For most of my life, I have experienced physical, sexual, emotional, mental, verbal, mental, and ritual and spiritual abuse. I attempted suicide multiple times and have been admitted into the psychiatric facilities 23 times within the last 5 years.
PTSD (Post traumatic stress disorder) was my first diagnosis, the major depression and then the Borderline personality disorder. In December, I was diagnosed with Dissociative identify disorder.
Dissociative Identity disorder formerly known as Multiple personality disorder is a diagnosis characterised by having two or more distinct people, each with his or her own personality/identity. It is thought that this disorder is a coping mechanism for childhood trauma- Psych Central
I don’t have any family support and I currently don’t have a psychiatrist. The last psychiatrist I had didn’t believe in DID. We are getting a new psychologist who actually knows what he’s doing, so our healing journey can really begin.
The thing I would say to people who don’t believe DID exists is it’s not just a figment of peoples imaginations. It is a natural and normal reaction to severe and chronic childhood trauma and there is irrefutable evidence as to the validity of its existence.
You can catch up with Ray on her blog at Multiple Me.com
Thank you very much Ray for sharing your story and best wishes in your journey and healing.
On a side note: Ray’s story got me researching into DID again, and the one thing I noticed is its close relationship with PTSD. You can read morw about Dissociative identity disorder here
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