“But I love you,” he said.
And I wondered where he got the notion that saying the words “I love you” was akin to an eraser which wipes off a slate of past mistakes; a chant which hypnotises one into prompt obedience regardless of the absurdity of the orders; a piece of blindfold over a woman’s eyes to block off the reality of events.
Or maybe, he just assumed I am like the other woman who had come and gone. A blooming soul withered by a facade of love, fed on sugar coated words which tasted like nothing- nothing- a compilation of meaningless gestures- suffocating.
And maybe (cause I can only assume as mama always said speak for yourself alone) he was fed on the notion that love is blind, love is an eraser and love hypnotises in the hands of a man.
But honey, Living has taught me, you can scream I love you until the oxygen carrying capacity of your lungs deplete, without sincerity in action, it don’t mean nothing. Call me cynical, but living otherwise would have me ending up just like the other woman. A washed-up replica of a once upon a time star.
“Until the oxygen carrying capacity of your lungs deplete”…. You have such a way with words! Loved seeing a post by you again. ❤
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Thank you very much Joy. I am happy to be writing again.
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That can be interpret in so many different ways. That was deep *snapping fingers* please continue
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Thank you very much Zayla! 😄😄
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Oh woooow Ameena! So much emotion and pain and courage in this poem! I do love your original works 🙂
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Thank you very much Jade. Haha, I have been using writer’s poem as an excuse to not write a lot lately 😄😄
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Past experiences can harden ones outlook on present ones. The words “I love you” has less meaning and impact on one with previous experiences and present ones. No one wants to end up as a “once upon a time star!” Words used should have true meaning, not just used in passing. Wonderful post!
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They sure can! Thank you very much JC. I agree, some say I love you so much without any meaning to it, it eventually loses its flavour
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In absolute and complete utter awe…at how your mind works ✨
Your writing only seems to blossom each time I read a new post from you 🌸
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Awww thank you very much. I am actually smiling right now as I read this because, this is one of my least favourites in a whirl but it has surprisingly been getting some great responses. So thank you
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Love this… Beautifully written.
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Thank you very much ma.
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