The fault was never yours in the first place. You never asked me to fall, yet I did. You never promised me a large floating bouncing ball which would break my fall, I just always hoped your love would. I was wrong. But don’t worry, it’s not your fault. Maybe, I miscalculated, misinterpreted.
I never knew how strong I was till it was time to set the clock of our love, my love, to a stop. I thought my world would come crashing when I saw the word “baby”, referring to someone who isnt… Me. Well, my world spiraled a bit but it’s still as strong as ever. I spent 3 years on you, not any more. I spent 3 years on the fictional world I created of us, don’t ask if I regret It.
No, I’m not broken, Just a bit down at the moment. I know I deserve better and we were never right from the start. But I thought, it wouldn’t matter…
Anyway, it’s time… it’s time to put three years worth of practice, to show that love to the one who deserves it first of all- the face I see staring back from the mirror.
How sad, Ameena – I don’t know if this is a work of fiction; regardless, I wish the speaker love and light, and I’m glad to see that the speaker saw the positive coming out of all this – the need to love ourselves first before we love others. Take care, my dear. ❤
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I’ll say it’s a little bit of both. Fiction and non fic. Thank you very much for this wonderful comment Annie. I am sorry, only just realised I havent replied to the Comment.
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I sense a touch of reality in this heart-wrenching piece. And even of it’s purely fictional, it speaks to the reader..sheer emotional connect.
I wish you all the light in this world and I hope your life is filled with positivity. This piece spells self-discovery and even though we are miles apart and unknown to each other, you have a friend in me, Ameena. Stay beautiful. Love.
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Thank you very much Vidisha.. Distance mean nothing 💃 ❤. I feel awful to only just realised I havent replied to this. I honestly appreciate it.
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I read this so many times because I could not believe how familiar this prose read. I felt my heart especially in the beginning lines. Ouch.
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Reading this piece again takes me back to a time. It’s reminded me I made the best and right decision.
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Great piece Ameena. self-love it vital!
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Thank you very much Mandi. It is vital indeed. 😊
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AMEN and AMEN in that last line!! But the whole poem is very good!
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03 years of unconditional love! Very well written!
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Thank you very much Prakash. 😊
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Forgetting, forgiving an unrequited love requires years, long years. The pain is so vivid. It’s so real. It’s so raw. Non fiction or not, I just want to give you some hugs. *hugs*
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Awww, I appreciate your hugs Rosema ❤❤❤
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ahh we could hear the sound of the crash till here Ameena…That was a huge one.Beautifully expressed
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❤❤ thank you.
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Deep. I felt the pain in this. Great post.
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Thank you very much Tikeetha 😊
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Three cheers to self-love!!! ❤
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Cheers Cheers Cheers 😄😄
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Beautiful lines, enjoyed reading this, reminded of someone but then at the end i was like, thanks they left i found that better which i deserved 🙂 – Cezane
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Thank you very much for sharing your thoughts on this Cezane. For somethings, I say “good riddance”.
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Very sad and well written!
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Thank you very much. 😊
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Its true we are always the hardest on ourselves. The face in the mirror needs more love and care than anyone else !
Well written Ameena 😊
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Yes we are our worst critics. Thank you very much Hargun 😊
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You are welcome Ameena 🙂
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Hi, I hope you’re doing well 🙂
I have nominated you for Liebster Award’16
Check it here: https://zkhan23.wordpress.com/2016/04/19/liebster-award-2016/
I am waiting for your answer hon ❤
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Thank you very much for the nomination. 😊
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🙂
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loving oneself is essential to the relationship with others… But it’s in giving love that we find our real selves… Love to others and to ourselves.
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Yes it is! We’ve got to love ourselves first of all. Thank you for reading. 🙂
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this is so heart wrenching my Sister! but you concluded it right, self love is often we forget while loving another person and we should never stop it.
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Thank you very much Sana sis. I think at the beginning of love, it can get a bit overwhelming that it’s easy to forget ourselves. 🙂
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Sad but true. Love yourself, especially when your heart is broken.
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I couldn’t agree. We have to love ourselves first of all.
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Oops. *couldn’t agree more* 😁
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Ugh. A love not returned. That’s so tough.
How are you Ameena? It’s been well over a month, hasn’t it? I’m back now.
🙂 ❤
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Haha, here is the comment 😄. I have been good. I left a bit shortly after you did. Posted only five times in April. Hoping to settle down by the end of the week. Great to see you back again 😄
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🙂 ❤
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