When I think of him, I smile. I smile at my naivety, which some may call, stupidity. I smile at the insane idea, I could have anything- just, about anything. Beauty, brains, career, every single dream accomplished and still have that love by my side. Who was I kidding. I could try, I did try… The moment I grasped one, another slipped right through my fingers. And I smile, I can’t help but smile… It’s the only way I can breathe in air without drops falling out of my eyes.
“It’s me or it”, he said with eyes reflecting the winter weather- they were white and cold, nothing like I’d ever seen. I smile cause I didn’t see it coming. It was either him or it- he placed me in a position to make a ludicrous choice. But to me- he was never a choice, never an option, always a definite.
And at that moment, standing at the junction- I could see his bus moving. He never wanted to stay in the first place. And I let him go… He fluttered away like a newly hatched butterfly and I stood there, trying to make sense with the little rationale left of me. “What just happened?” I found myself asking rhetorically, time after time after time; The only answer- Maybe, they were right. Maybe, I can’t have it all at the same time.
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smiling lips , but crying eyes..
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You just summed the whole piece up! 😄
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Sad 😦
But I loved how the emotions were weaved into words perfectly.
Thumbs up on that !
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Thank you Hargun. It’s sad to lose someone when you least expect. I’m glad the emotions cut across. 😊
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sad but a beautiful story , loved the last line ‘Maybe, they were right. Maybe, I can’t have it all at the same time’ .
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Thanks Sis 😄. I love that line too, I sure hope “they were not right”
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Losing him isn’t the end of the world. Glad she’s able to smile and move on. Wonderful story! 🙂 I can’t help but wonder what choice did he ask her to choose (“it” refers to?) ? 🙂
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It isn’t, I think she will move on, eventually. I wanted to leave it up to the reader to input whatever they felt “the it” could have been. Thanks 😄
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Only you can make my heart feel sad but yet at the same time struck by the beauty of how you express yourself! “Only way I can breathe in the air without drops falling out of my eyes!” Love that line!
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Awww, thank you very much Joy 😊😊.
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Beautiful story with a lot of emotion between the lines! Sad that he left in the end.
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I think it was sort of a good riddance. They were both better off without each other. And thank you Pj. 😊
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Beautiful but sad!
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It is sad, thank You Vonita.
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Emotional and heart gripping sad. Great job! 🙂
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Thank you JC. I’m glad I could the emotions across to you.
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Very nice poem Ameena and sad.
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Thanks Mandi. It is sad for now, but I think she’d get through it 🙂
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I’m glad.
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Sad but a beautiful story!
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Thank you Chealsea 🙂
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Thanks Mandi :)… It is sad for now but I think she’d get through it.
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That’s a sad reality! We can’t have everything 😂😂 it’s so nicely illustrated ☺
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Haha, they say we can’t. Thank you Izza
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Hmmm, he sounds like the situation where she is sad not about losing him in particular but love. Losing at the chance of forming a bound but he does not sound like he was on the road of permanence in her life. May I be indiscreet and say she is glad that he ask her to choose career or.him, so she could get rid of him.
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Your comment made me read the post again and was like “yeahhh”, it wasn’t him, it was the love.
Hahaha, I left “it” on purpose so we could all fit in our ideas.
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